Brooklynn will get her heart fixed April 5th, she will be admitted April 4th. I have jumped up and down with joy and have fallen to the floor and cried with fear. Emotional rollercoaster. I spoke with the nurse this morning and the ICU is booked. They have moved other surgeries around to make room for her. I have dealt with denial, that this could not be happening to me, my child, or my family. It lead to anger from the feelings of grief and inexplicable loss that I didn't know how to explain or deal with. Now I am powerless. I can not change what is happening and it is very difficult to accept. It is extremely hard to be forced to rely on the judgments, opinions and recommendations of others. Even though it does not seem possible, good things will happen each day. I am still mad at God but now asking that he doesn't take her from me now. That would just be mean.

We had an awesome week so far. We had a great visit with Adam, Beth , Laura and Ben. The boys got to go play golf while us girls girls had Brooklynn's 3 month pictures. Heather takes the most amazing pictures! Then we had Tommy's brother Billy and his family come. We had a blast playing with Max, Olivia and Georgia! Tommy heated up the pool to 95! Here on some pics!